I just Can't STOP

In the lift, one guy said to his friend, "U know what, U r allowed to smoke here. There is no sign...hahahhahah". He said very confidently.

His friend said : "Hish...NO la...U can see there. That sign shows that we cannot smoke in the lift".

That guy said again after a few second n after not laughing anymore when his friend pointing directly to the sign : "That sign is the old one and cannot be used anymore"...

Me, myself n I (speaking loudly in my heart) : "Ur T-shirt(university's logo) remind me that U r intelligent enough to think whether it is wrong or not to smoke in the lift. Here I want to give U some thought of my mind. Actually U r totally wrong."

Sejak akhir2 ni sikap belas kasihan semakin tinggi...
Entahla...
Tuan empunya diri ni pn xtahu...
Mudah sgt diri ni ckp "Ya Allah, kesiannya dia ni...semoga Allah permudahkan hidup dia"...tp, cuma dlm hati....hanya mampu doakan yg terbaik buat mereka2 yg saya kasihani...

Situasi Pertama :
Tempat : Station LRT Kelana Jaya
Turun dr LRT n straight to bus station...on d way tu...pcik2 taxi sdg buli sorg pcik A (bisu-msa tu tgh mkn jambu) nih...

p.cik 1 : wei, meh cni....haaa tgk, aku pgl...dia dtg punya...(p.cik A dtg sambil mkn jambu yg dbeli)

p.cik A : (menghulurkan plastik jambu pd p.cik 1)

p.cik 1 : tgk...aku pgl je, mesti dia bg punya (tanpa segan silu mkn jambu p.cik A). Nah...(sambil hulurkan plastik jambu)

p.cik A : (mkn smula jambunya)

p.cik 2 : wei cni

p.cik A : (dtg n hulurkn plastik jambu)

p.cik 1 : btol x aku ckp....dia bukan dgr pon...btol x bisu?

p.cik A : aaaa.a.aa.a..a (cuba brckp walaupn tidak difahami manusia lain)

p.cik 1 : ko mkn je, dia ni baek sgt. (p.cik 1 amek plastik jambu dr p.cik 2, mkn lg, lg, lg dan lagi...)

p.cik 1 : Bisu, aku abeskan je la, tgl skit ni....ko g bli lg (smbil tunjuk kdai jual jambu)

aku berckp dlm hati : Ya Allah...hati ini sakit melihat situasi ini. Yg sempurna pergunakan yg tidak sempurna. Ya Allah, permudahkan kehidupan p.cik itu (p.cik A).



Situasi Kedua :
Tempat : Bus stop dpan KJMC
Balik keje trus tgu bas...ramai tol org tgu bas....dgn traffic jamnya....Tetiba dtg uncle (pangkat atuk jln slow2 dan xlarat)...kesian tol uncle nih....

Uncle tu dtg n berdri depan seorg pompuan muda yg cantik. Uncle tu tgk je pompuan tu, mcm nk minta tmpt duduk. Pompuan cantik tu menjeling dan pandang tempat lain....buat2 mcm uncle tu xde dpan dia.

Dlm hati ni ckp "Ya Allah, bgla uncle tu duduk. xkesian ke tgk uncle tu pgg tongkat, menggigil lak tgn dia tu. Xberhati perut langsung la". 10 mnit berlalu....

Sy yg tgh berdiri ni geram n kesian tgk uncle tu. Wlaupn berlainan agama, kita knala hormat ngn yg tua...Nasibla sy ni berdiri....Sy dtg ke uncle tu, tarik tgn uncle tu n ckap, uncle duduk ye....sy dtg ke pompuan cantik tu...."Dik, bole bg uncle ni duduk x? Kesian uncle ni dik".....pompuan cantik tu tgk saya....smua tgk sy msa tu....sy xpeduli.....

"Er....dudukla"....tersenyum kelat dibuatnya pompuan cantik tu.

Msa tu sy ckp lg dlm hati, "Ya Allah, ape akn jd pd uncle tu sekiranya dibiarkn saja berdri, tiada lgkah perasaan kasihan sesama manusia?...."Ya Allah, Kau berilah hidayah buat adik cantik itu utk mengasihi dan menghormati org lain"...

Hati sy sgt hiba...sy sebak...dan menahan air mata ini dr terus mengalir...




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Hurm...stakat ini je la yg mampu sy cerita utk kali ini...hati sedih lak nk cerita semuanya kt cni....bila hati da ok, bru leh citer lg....

Hanya Allah je la yg tahu perasaan ini...

Sy cuma nak ingatkan dri sy...hidup ini sementara...sayangilah org lain sepertimana kita menyayangi dri kita....

Ini adalah kita pada 09/09/09



dan ini adalah kita pada 10/10/10....




dan pada 11/11/11...

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

Perhatian!! isi kandungan ini byk yg xbaik dr yg baik. Be careful!!!

Why I should move from my current rental house?

1. I need to walk a long distance.

For the first time I am here, that kakak said that the bus stand is just behind this place (Alaa, blakang ni je), I can get a shortcut to go there. Hurm…you know what? I have to walk 15-20 minutes in order to reach that bus station. And of course my body is sweating just like I am jogging for 2km. Huh!!! Supposedly, you will have a fresh body to go work right? May be, for 2 months is okay. But, in the month of 3^rd, I feel like @$%$%&^@....

Another story to tell you that I need to walk about 25-30 minutes to go home. Huh, after a tired day of work, plus traffic jam (LDP is always jam), then I need to walk again? Lately, I go home by taxi since I feel so tired to walk home and it’s already dark and I’m afraid to go home alone. Is this what you mean “dekat je”? You are liar.

2. I don’t like ‘bukan muhrim’ guy in the house.

That kakak said that her boypren will eat in the house. Okay, I just think that he will just eating (bape lama sgt la kalo mkn tu kan, pas mkn dia balik la tu). Unfortunately, until 12am he still there, in front of the TV. It happened not once okeyh. Some other time, her boypren go back at 3 o’clock in the morning. (Tak manis rasanya ada lelaki bukan muhrim ada dlm umah pompuan yg lom kahwin). Most importantly, I feel so uncomfortable with this situation. (Yela, tgh mata terpisat2 nk g toilet tetiba je kna msuk bilik smula, pkai pakaian yg tutup aurat siap tudungnya skali).

Today (23/10 around 9.00pm), her brother sleeps here, in this house. She not even says a word to me. “RESPECT OTHERS, BEFORE OTHERS RESPECT YOU”. I am not muhrim to your brother.

3. I hate the darkness.

Firstly, there is no light in the toilet. Almost 2 months my friend and I have to face the darkness while we are in the toilet. After 2 months, I can switch on the light perfectly without any disappointment (Of course after you change the lamp). Secondly, I cannot open the light in my room. Now, it almost 3 weeks I am in the dark in my own room. So, I need to iron my clothes outside of the room. (Aku bayar deposit terlebih2 kot, ape gune bayaran maintenance pn mahal, tp aku masih dalam kegelapan lagi smpai sekarang ). For your information, I also cannot sleep so well when I am in the darkness. I am afraid of the dark. Do you care my dear housemate?

Post after her boypren cube btol2kn lampu. Not enough langsung okeyh, since

there is no light comes out from the lamp.

4. I really care about my safety.

One month ago, there are 2 black guys block my way to my house. So scary. After that moment, my roommate and I will go home together. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, the outsiders are fighting each other. Some other time, they are fighting from 12.30am to 3.30am. Of course I feel so scared since I am alone in the house. The guard and security also can do nothing. I do not know my neighbors. What happened if something happened to me? In the morning, you will see alcohol bottles everywhere. Who will protect me when I in need?

5. Your ‘mulut laser’ is breaking my heart.

- “Blajar je tinggi2, tp xtau masak”. [Time aku masak, hang bkn ada rumah pon. Pastu, ape yg aku masak, hang bkn makan pn nnt kan. Sayur itu xmkn, sayur ini xmkan. Aku nk msk itu tp hang ckp xmkn, so mlasla aku nk masak. Hang penah rasa aku masak tomyam/ asam pedas/ lemak cilia api/ sup? Kalo sayur tu, xyah ckp r, hang xmkn sayur pn. Yup, aku xtau masak ikut selera tekak hang. Aku suka masak ape yg aku tau je. Yang xtau tu, aku akan blajar jugak nnt. Blog ni akan jadi blog mknan lak nnt.]

- “Blajar je tgi2 tp bodoh”. [For your information, I never said that word to anybody. You said loudly in the Facebook, and I just keep quiet.]

- “Plz go away”. [If you want to throw me away, please don’t say it loudly in the Facebook. Because I never say anything bad about you in Facebook. Since I am human, and I cannot keep my emotion any longer, than I publish it in my blog. Satisfied? You do everything you like without thinking about others feeling. You are afraid to tell me since I pay more than enough for our deposit right (just my own thought). You said that because you cannot do anything that you like in the house right (bring your guy inside the house).]

Post after we have confirmed to move from that house.

6. I want my own privacy.

Don’t you ever shout my name in the morning every Saturday and Sunday because it is my precious time to do my work (because I really love to learn about my job) or something else. You shout it loudly (with a full of volume) and repeatedly just like it is urgent (but it is just a joke)eventhough I already reply it until I said, “kak, sabar ek”.

Six is enough for now since I feel so tired to type about this thing. Actually there are more than six but I don’t want to say it in public. I just write it in my black diary, a gift from Pa’ie.

Nota tambahan 1 on 24/10 at 4.30pm.

FYI, there is a girl I met a long time ago at Kelana Putri Condominium who wants to move to a closer place to Taylor College and I already recommend her to rent this house since I have to move to another house. I gave her my phone number but I not take her number. Luckily, today she asks me to go out with her for a while. I went to see her and apologize to her about the rental house. Since that kakak don’t want to talk with me and ignore me just like I am invisible, I recommend her to go to Desa Mentari. (Xdela, susah lak kan…kalo ckp2 rupanya xberjawab cam ckp ngn tunggul kayu, malas den nk layan).

Nota tambahan 2 on 25/10 at 12.00pm.

Hahaha...xsempat den nk print screen smua benda yg dia post kt FB, knonnya nk tunjukkn ketidakpuasan hati la tu. Tahu knp? Sbb dia da delete sy dr FB dia. Hahaha... By the way, dia delete tu ada sbb tau...nk tahu?

Mestila sbb hal mlm td dia da bengang kt cheq ni. Cheq sound direct koot. Cheq gtau dia lagu ni...."kak, kalo dia msuk gtau la, op tgh xtutup aurat"...Woo...gue sgt pentingkan aurat wooo... Maklumlah, pintu bilik terbuka luas nk dapatkn cahaya luar. Biasa pandai lak ckp kalo boypren nk msuk umah. Xkn mlam td tetiba leh ter"b@&@#" lak kaaan.

Haaaa.....I feel so lega la after I writing it all here.

Opieee....plz istighfar banyak2...okeyh

Astaghfirullahalaziiim.....